lebamness

my eyes are sleepy. its been a week of ramadhan now. and finally today baru i buka posa makan nasi. so smgt makan nasi ayam summore. nasi ayam alia kan sedap *angkat bakul puji sendiri*. hahahaha. i have been sick, emotionally drained and tired of working for the past week. few days i buka posa at client's place. kurma and biscuits. by the time around 10 to 11ish balik, dah penat. terus tido. 100plus is my current vitamin. haah. tp alhamdullillah my makan mood is back today. no more sakit perut and such. yeay!

td finalize paperworks for insurance. kena lukis tempat kejadian kot! sebelum and selepas plis! of kos i akan letak mcm bunga2, rumput, burung, matahari, hahahaha. owh the car that i hit was perodua viva. so i am officialy declaring a war towards viva. say no to viva! now even tdo pon asyik teringt those seconds before the accident. haihhhh. *looking for a delete button on my head*

so now transport wise still working on it. so to my friends yang tak posa which indirectly mean tak solat terawikh, plis let me know coz i mite need teman berbicara while waiting for mom to pick me up after she finishes her solat terawikhs. ok? ok?

owh my area lutut/betis have few lebam lebam. terhantuk maner ntah pon tak sure. td solat br sedar. pretty sure sbb terlanggar handbreak saper ntah tuh..hahahahaha..tumpang-ing car is not fun!

owh todaykan my phone tertiba tunjuk reminder of sumthing....sort of anniversary lah..2 years ago...amiralia.....hahahaha..sumpah i nak tergelak tgk tat nickname...omg!!!! i was being sooo lame plis!

my office ada kuar kad raya. saper nak? sila kasi addy kat me plis! i smgt nak hantar nie. owh i have niat to send one to n*q*b (which from now onwards i will nickname him as he-who-shall-not-be-mentioned..ahah) for those close to me, knows that i did my best to be friends with him. i did msged him on friendster and facebook..no response..i did txted him, no reply...i did called his house phone..and he answered..and we talked..for hours..and i just said, if its ok with you, maybe we could meet up and patch sum things..he never gimme a call back...even idzwan (tat guy from welly also known as baybee..ingt tak? he is my new best friend kat ofis ok)..said i did my best dah..so if he taknak..there isnt much i can do...owh apparently i slalu dpt updates abt him from faiz yatim kot his name..another pwcian but currently working in penang. he slalu je tegur2 me thru office chat. dah lar tak penah borak before tis, and his first pickup line was...'i'm sorry, i had to ask..ar you aliawati, the chch girl, he-who-shall-not-be-mentioned ex?'..hahaha...terkedu kot i...but ape ape pon...i do hope things will be better between us...so should i send kad raya to him?

can sumone tell me how to move on..? sumhow, along the way..i didnt believe in love and such thing called eternity..haah...

ps - ngantuk la..jom tido!

*speechless*

as at 10.25pm, alhamdullillah i manage to cover most of the process...its not fun i tell you.

first i went to balai polis traffik again tis morning. just to take the stupid report which they can easily give it to me yesterday nite but no. ikut protokol, kena ambik the next day. pffttttt. dah lar mcm jauh kot kat jalan tun hs lee. plus with pakcik pakcik polis thinking they are hot and abg-abg insurance thinking i need help. soooooo gross k. sumpah mcm nak mandi wajib terus k. hahahahaha

while waiting for the report to be ready. called my insurance. there this one chinese shop at kmpung kayu ara which is the authorised bengkel for my insurance but mum insist to go to proton edar still. google and found one near seksyen 13 (eventhough kat mutiara damansara ada satu..haha)

so went to the proton edar insurance claim dept first. owh that abang is sooooooo buncit k *i am writing tis at nite, after buka posa, so segala kutukan tidak mengurangkan pahala posa saya..sekian :)* he thinks like we are so stupid and dumb. iye. mmg saya yang bw kete itu and saya langgar. dun have to repeat it over and over again. pastu ckp. nie boleh settle as fast as possible. most prob after raya ok! sumpah lama kotttttttt! pastu alasan dier sbb org lain nak raya jugak....what abt me? i ada kerja kotttttt!!!

but since i opt to keep quiet all the way and let mum handle it. so i diam je lah. the way he look at first..eeuuwwwwwwww...i always have things again these 'perasan pakciks'..*sigh*

do u know when u make a report at balai police, u have to write it in malay. such as pada hari ketika saya sedang memandu kereta dari ke .......tiba-tiba sesuatu berlaku dan saya cuba menekan brek tetapi terlanjak ke hadapan dan melanggar kereta di

hahahaha. mum and abg was arguing what to write while i type. boleh tak pakcik tuh tanyer i boleh type computer ke tak? am i that buta-IT? *geleng geleng kepala*

me without a car is like a lipas with its leg *lipas kudung*...my pikiran is sooo serabut thinking abt work and classes..how laaa..howwww??

i can smell the issue arising soon. esok my second bro nak gie kl. wanting mom to send him to lrt. mom has kelas ngaji everyday from 8.30 to 2pm. so how??? i have work. mom now has to send me. esok and lusa ok lagi. still at SS2 je. after that?? *telan panadol*

thinking nnt next week i have to go out from hse like at 6 kot so that mom can return back here by 8 to attend her classes. balik confirm lepas terawikhs laa br she is free. *finding energy drink to keep me strong*

owh my EL day isnt that bad...managed to go to bazaar ramadhan td. eventhough me mcm takde mood nak makan *have been sakiting perut since last week*..i enjoyed my moments there. and i managed to go to terawikh at masjid mujahideen td. met few mom's friend and gossip. *ok..dlm masjib kot*

so i guess its not that bad afterall. esok confirm have to tell setori mori to my team. owh i didnt touch my work at all *clap clap*

its almost 11 now. kinda sleepy. i miss chuck. i really do. the garage seem empty without chuck. i'm sorry chuck for leaving u behind at proton edar. u must be cold and lonely. i promise i would take good care of you after tis k. eventhough rmai ckp proton is no good and such, but after the accident makes me heart chuck evenmore. he's been good to me. tonz of memories in the car. so how many ppl kutuk proton, i stand on my very two on feet that my chuck is strong! *emo tak bertempat plis*

u will never realize what you have until it is gone infront of your very own two eyes...

i wish i have a boyfie now. maybe he could help out a little. guys and car are inseparable kan. or at least guy-friends that could help me out a little. huhuhuhu. takpelah. life move on.

my phone is extremely quiet tonite. kinda miss that person who calls me 'baby'. owh well....

toodles~

ps - few ppl annoys me, forcing me to go to ksp dinner (office dinner)..if you dun know whats goin on with my life, dun make assumption and force me to have fun. me in no mood and plis respect that. thank you *eventhough no one in the office read this..i think*

and i decided to blog again..

kia ora...
i always wanted to blog again. i was an active blogger when i was back in chch and sumhow it got stop when i'm back here in malaysia. it has been monthssssss since the last time i wrote. i miss writing. i do. i miss sharing my thoughts and experience too.

thus i have planned to activate my blog again. was contemplating whether to make it private or not. decided not to make it private as i love receiving comments. comments mean sumbdy actually cared for you *in this technology way of life* thus if i make it private, i'm not sure who i wanna to invite to read it. i do not have lots of friends *sob sob*

again, i have planned to activate my blog. being perfectionist and wanted to make my layout, theme and music perfect takes ages when u are an auditor. owh, did i tell u that i am working as an auditor now? in an owh-so-prestigious company called PricewaterhouseCoopers. well..i have no comment on that yet. work is work. no complain. thats my motto. *boring*

thank god by 1st Ramadhan i am satisfied with everything here. but work still pulls me behind. plus the fact that i am currently studying part time too. with family responsibilities and different group of friends. its hard to make time for all.

so again, what makes me write again today? the answer is simple...

I JUST HAD AN ACCIDENT YESTERDAY!

dun worry. alhamdullillah i'm fine. no one got hurt. but i did bang the car real bad. poor 'chuck'...the front really got smashed up. i am just gonna summarized what has happened. i was driving from client's place back to office as there was a function starts at 6pm. it was smooth journey from my place till i reached jalan damansara towards bangsar (sprint highway) and all of sudden there's a long queue to turn right and next thing i know it was like.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....kedebosh!!!!!!!

so i hope by writing this, no one will ask me again. *wishful*. lazy to tell over and over again but i guess thats part of life. jaga tepi kain org is a must kannn. gossips kot!

so today i am on emergency leave. settle first part of police report yesterday nite. an experience i do not want to repeat. now waiting to finalize the report and den need to settle the insurance and workshop. crap! next week my client would be in shah alam. owh how laaa..taking bus? *dayah, need ur help here*

owh for those reading and know how 'fun' my work in the firm is...today..i mean till 1.20pm...i have been receiving calls from everyone asking me to replicate!!!! sooo much of their concern kannnn...owh i decided to take EL (emergency leave) last nite. den this morning, i tertido till 8.45am kot, till sumone woke me up. den only i realized that none of my team actually contacted me asking if me come to work or not! such a happy family i have kannn....den wen i txted them saying me taking EL and such.....continuously calls of replicating and info....owh so sweet laaa..nvertheless it doesnt bother me much la..was prepared for it dah...work is work...they are just officemates and not friends *fullstop*

oklah. i think the report is ready. need to go.

owh dun worry. i will be actively sharing my thoughts and updates here. the accident thought me lessons of life. LESSONS k.

the accident thought me that...

...i dun really have much friends that i can be fully dependable of. like will be there for you no matter what..i really had to scroll the name list and thinking whether each of the names has other obligations or commitments and such..finally i got tired and just dun call any of my friends yet

...in order to be dependable and happy..since i cant rely on 'org tersayang' and such...i shall activate my blog again. i know my blog will always be here and i can share everything here *thank you blog*

...there are friends who knows u real well and can cheer u up no matter how sad i am. did i tell you that i cried like air terjun yesterday after the accident? i guess all my accumulated probs got sum up and it just burst!

...family is the best. has the bestest abg in the whole world! *currently i am his proud mr bean who hit a car*

...all things that happen ada hikmahnya. eventhough i met an accident. i'm still ok. the other ppl in the other car is ok. my best friend got a job in pwc too and starting soon. manage to get EL today to have at least few hours of break from job.

...sorted few personal issues with my feelings.

i am slowly climbing back to my ladder of life. will you help me along the way?